Thanks!

I thought I'd take the time (finally, I know) to thank all of you who have read this blog. Yes, I know it's been a long time since my last post.

The journey through Asia was incredible.

Writing about the experience was like nothing else for me - I had to deal with emotions, experiences, and thoughts that I had repressed for years. It made me come to terms with myself like I've never done and it forced me to take an honest look at who I had become as a result of my past. What did I make a priority in my life?

So many people I have met on this journey of rediscovery touched my life. Thanks for taking the time to share this with me whether it was reading about it online or if we happened to cross paths somewhere on the globe.

* Unfortunately, at this time no other information is available on my birth family. There is another large conference in Seoul this year. However, I'm not sure if I will go or not. http://ikaa.org

I'm supposed to be working on a book. It's slow going - most of what I needed to get out has escaped through this blog.

Much love to all of you!

Thoughts and then some thoughts

It has been some time since I last wrote anything. What can you do when you are not sure what to do?

I mean you find out someone (my birth father) you never knew died? What does it mean to you, to me?

I can only think about my family that raised me and the love that was there. Nothing can mean more than that. It is because of that love, that I will believe in the goodness and love in everyone, even if it is not always easy to see or feel.

I have decided that no matter how difficult life is - I choose not to become too cynical; I choose not to become bitter; I choose not to quit believing in LOVE.

These lessons I have learned from the beautiful people who I have crossed paths with along the way.

And because of these people, I will not quit.

No News and then some News

So it's been a week since my last post - This is mostly due to the travel and the weariness it imparts in one's body and mind. Whew!!! Oh yeah, the lack of Internet at the hotel where we are in Thailand doesn't help either. But it is beautiful, but hey this is for the other blog...

So, I did find out that the person who may be my biological father passed away in 1986. The circumstances are unknown at this time. What information has been explained to me is that he was married twice and he did live in the area that was described as a place for my birth father's address. So Hoya at GOA'L has some information on his relatives and plans to contact them and let me know. She did explain to me that she spoke to his first wife and she had said that I was not her son.

Who really knows? I know that I do not, but I did do a DNA test when I was in Seoul so if someone does end up claiming that I am their son, it can be verified.

At this point all I can really do is hope to hear something from GOA'L. So for now, I will continue to live my life just as before one day at a time...